March 2011
1 post
yeah sure
i miss my friends. and i need a new job. and i really need to get in shape. that about covers it for the next couple weeks til i write something else. i’m so bad about keeping up with this thing haha
January 2011
1 post
i’m so lucky to have the life i have. there are days that i’d like to rip my hair out at the roots and light myself on fire…but then i have days like today where everything just seems right.
December 2010
1 post
blahblahblah!
havent been on here in AGES!! dave is going to be a YEAR OLD in 18 days, and i can’t believe it! i have no clue what i’m going to do for his birthday. i know he wont remember it, but i still want to do something for it. david and i got back together — suupeerrrrr happy!! other notes — still working on trying to find a new job to gtfo of my house; and my grandmother thinks...
August 2010
2 posts
July 2010
1 post
i tell people every day that i’m not a mind reader, but every day i expect YOU to be. i guess i feel like i shouldnt have to ask you for just a little help. i know that if rolls were reversed, you’d be aggrivated too.
June 2010
4 posts
sometimes
i find myself incredibly jealous and resentful of other people’s happiness. does that make me a bad person?
ugh.
james is choosing not to go through with the chemo. i cant imagine what his wife is going through. life has a way of just never making sense…
home again, home again...
jiggity jog. so good to be home! david did SO well on both flights, didnt cry once, and slept almost the whole time each way. minneapolis was as beautiful as i remember it! total time crunch though haha. so stressful trying to fit in everything and everyone in just a few days, but it was totally worth it.
good news: grandparents are going on vacation very soon! yay! no offense to either of them,...
tomorrow
is the big day!! dave’s first flight! we’ll see how he does. and hopefully i’ll have a much clearer head when i get back in town. i think vacation is just what i need. and then a pool and something strong to drink, along with some great friends —YES that means YOUUU too alexiaaaa!!!!!
May 2010
3 posts
i’ve come to the conclusion that the only way i know how to describe myself is to say whatever i am to other people. mother, daughter, girlfriend. some people think i’m a bitch. some people think i’m funny. some people think i’m retarded. others wise beyond my years. i dont really know what i am. i guess i just…am. and i suppose that’ll just have to suffice.
Lately
It’s been a good little while since I’ve posted, and a whole lot’s been happening. Little Dave just turned 4 months old two Sundays ago, already. He started rolling over the other day! All the way over, not just getting caught on his shoulder. And his new favorite way to sleep is on his side. He’s the happiest baby, and he looks more and more like his daddy every day. I...
February 2010
3 posts
Today's one of those days...
i wanna dress up. my pre-pregnancy clothes dont fit, but my stretchy jeans keep falling down, and i’m stuck wearing t-shirts. all i can focus on is my stomach, and that’s covered in stretch marks. i wanna look nice. my hair’s frizzy, so it’s pulled back like every other day, and i poked myself in the eye when i was doing my makeup, so mascara was smeared all over. my...
January 2010
5 posts
“It’s not that I don’t like people. It’s just that when I’m in the company of...”
– ~ Maureen Corrigan (via gatekeeper)
never better
January 2, 2010 at 10:41AM, weighing 7llbs, 8oz, 20 3/4 inches long…David Henry Scott Junior. He’s the most precious little thing on two legs I have ever seen. The 28 hour labor, and the threat of a C-section [After two tries with two different vacuums, and the hardest pushing I’ve ever imagined…”If we don’t get him any closer with this push, we’re...
December 2009
10 posts
Wow.
I had a doctor’s appointment on Monday, ultrasound and all. Cervix is much softer than it was last week. Ultrasound said he’s measuring at 40 weeks, which is good that it’s not 42 or something. My amniotic fluid level is still good, but on the low side of good. David’s about 8lbs, 7 oz, and squished and twisted lke a little pretzel! My doctor said she’s not going to...
Dear Santa...
It’s been a long time since I’ve written, and I have a feeling my Christmas wishes will be a little different than they used to be. Instead of a long list of books and toys, here’s what I’d give anything to have this year…
Please help me have more patience with my grandma. I know she’s difficult to deal with, but I also know there’s quite a bit of brain...
=]
David told me today that he wants to be “the Kobe Bryant of dads”. Typical analogy haha. I can’t wait to see that 6’5”, 240 pound man hold our tiny newborn son for the first time. That’s going to be one of the all-time greatest moments of my life. I just know it.
Words of Wisdom
This morning my boss looked at me and said, “Experience speaks a whole lot louder than age.”
I wish more people agreed with that.
I really do try to see the glass as half full...
I heard a quote today by Ralph Waldo Emerson.
“What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.”
It really hit home with where I am in my life right now. I always say not to use the past as an excuse, and not to focus all of your energy on the future either. You have to live for now, because maybe now is all you have. Don’t dwell...
“Critics who treat ‘adult’ as a term of approval, instead of as a...”
– CS Lewis, “On Three Ways of Writing for Children”
[Video] Christmas Lights set to TSO →
I wonder how many months of planning this took?!
It's all happening.
They say everything happens for a reason. That’s one of the few things “they” say that I agree with. Sometimes you don’t know what the reason is, and sometimes you never really find out. Life didn’t ask me what my plans were. I’m 20 years old, and have less than a month before I become a first-time mom. I feel less in control of my life than I’ve ever...