Live for today. Hope for tomorrow.

They say everything happens for a reason. That’s one of the few things “they” say that I agree with. Sometimes you don’t know what the reason is, and sometimes you never really find out. Life didn’t ask me what my plans were. I’m 20 years old, and have less than a month before I become a first-time mom. I feel less in control of my life than I’ve ever felt…but I’ve never been more content. As long as I can remember, I’ve always felt like there just had to be something more to life than whatever it was that I was dealing with. Now, I know why I was put on this earth. My lot in life is to be the best mother I can be. It’s not about me anymore. My life is no longer mine. All that I have, and all that I am is for the betterment of my son.

Never in my life have I ever had to ask for so much help. I’ve always been too proud to say “Hey, I really need a hand with this”. Now, I feel totally dependent on others to do the silliest things for me. Redoing my room to get ready for the little one was an impossibility. The only thing I got to do to help with it was dictate how and where I wanted everything…painting and rearranging furniture are both off limits. I’ve had to swallow a whole lot of pride [and even more prenatal vitamins], but it’s all been worth it.

I’ve recently come to the conclusion that I’m one of the luckiest people in the world. I’m young and [sort-of] have my act together. I have an amazing family and boyfriend that all support me through anything and everything. And I have the opportunity to bring a new life into this world. I hope David and I are strong enough as parents, and as a couple, to teach our son to see the beauty in all things, despite the negativity that surrounds him.

He’ll be tall like his Daddy. The ultrasound at 18 weeks showed legs for days. I know he’ll be just as compassionate and sweet as David is, too. One of David’s best qualities, though, that I wish I could say I shared, is his ability to see the good in everyone, regardless of everyone else’s views. I feel so lucky that I he’s such a huge part of my life, and I wouldn’t want to raise a child with anyone else. It’s going to be tough to be young parents who also balance work, school, and time for each other. And I know we both have so many worries from “What if it gets too hard, and we break up” to “what if we’re bad parents” and “Man, I’m really going to miss sleep”…But I know we can do it.

I’m ready.